Thursday, December 13, 2007

Contented, Yet Conflicted

I'm feeling strange today, kinda schizo. Here are just a few of the thoughts swirling madly about in my head, yearning to get out.

1.) I'm missing Mom. It doesn't hurt as much. I wonder what she's doing right now. She always said that she wanted a chance for a long talk with Paul. Curious.

2.) I'm thinking about Dad and his girlfriend. Is he going to marry her? He says no very emphatically, but I'm not certain. I had a dream last night that they got married over the weekend, and that Crissy and I found out accidentally. Weird.

3.) My back hurts. Every once in a while, I do something that makes my back hurt like the dickens for a few days. I have no idea what movement triggers these spasms. Annoying.

4.) I wanna finish my Christmas shopping. I only have a couple more gifts to buy right away. (We are taking the gifts for Scott's side to them when we go up in February, so those can wait.) I'm starting to look forward to this last bit of shopping. Tentatively excited.

5.) I'm looking forward to going out tomorrow night. I am going out to dinner with a couple of friends, WITHOUT children. Woohoo!

6.) My ears hurt again!!!! Why, oh, why?! I took all of my antibiotics and did everything the doctor said to do. My ears are another part of my body that I am joyously looking forward to having perfected in Heaven. NO MORE EARACHES!!!!! Yeah, boy!

7.) My house is calm and peaceful for the moment. Ellas is watching a video before bed. Scott is watching a movie in our room. Bren is spending the night w/ a friend and going to a midnight movie w/ the upperclassmen. (Oh my goodness!!!) I am in the living room in my big comfy chair, typing away. Happy, happy, joy, joy!

So, how scary was that little snippet?! This is why I can't remember things and get distracted so easily. I already have a million things on my mind. Adding more? Not a good idea.


Anonymous said...

I love a peaceful house. Too bad I can't remember the last time mine was peaceful. I am soaking up your peace right now, living vicariously! I'm glad you posted your thoughts. I like knowing what people are thinking. And what you wrote about your mom I wonder that a lot about people I know in heaven.

Kim said...

I like it when you say "Happy, happy, joy, joy!". It makes me smile.

Crissy said...

Honestly, that didn't seem too disjointed. Maybe I say that because the exact same thoughts are in my own head. You know, the 'twin thing'.